& the rest is still unwritten...



I realized that I am slipping back in my old ways again where I'm just being such a *hirurtufnajkdjkfjjkdfjiweweuwfjhfjf*and I don’t want to be that person anymore, and I know that it is just going to kill me. It just that sometimes with no reason what so ever I get so depressed, and I really can’t figure out why. I notice that I’m getting like that too. I just have so much to worry about, and I just feel like I just want to disappear. I need to snap out of it.




Fade Away...

 Falling dusk..
Abandons light..
Disappearing shadows..
Echoes sorrows..
Agony rising..
Wishes fading..
Across the cloud..
You depart again..



I am still standing right there, without a bit of change...

Everybody seems to have moved on.
Everybody seems busy and excited with their lives.
And where am I again?
Still there, no progress, no change, no plans ahead.
I feel so lost.
Like a blind person walking on a road without any clue of where am I heading to or what am I going to do next?
I hate feeling this way it sucks..
I hate to feel left out.
Everybody seems just fine and moving on happily, making progress and making out something out of their life.
So why am I not? Why am I being so lost?
Well, I am just to weak to do anything now, down with fever and flu again :/
Yeah, for the how many times of the year I don't know.
I seriously need to get my blood tested: s
"What’s the point in living if there's no life in it?"
*that's what I feel at the moment* 



-No Title-

Who should I blame?
Should I blame you? myself? or the situation??
Well, I choose to blame myself.
I'm sorry for everything

I blame myself for letting me go to bed with eyes full of tears.

I'm just sick and tired trying to justify all your actions and trying to understand your situation and Consoling my heart.
For once try to understand me, would you?
The only thing I wish right now, that I am an ant.
So that I can crawl and sit under a rock and nobody would ever notice my existence



Sorry for trusting you.
Sorry for having hopes on you that you'll some how one day change.
Sorry for sticking by you even though everybody was misjudging.
Sorry for risking myself and ignoring what people thinks about me when we are together.
Sorry for defending you when people talked bad about you.
And sorry for thinking that I was somehow special in your life when the truth is I am not.
Sorry for wanting you to be better and have a better future.
Thank you for everything...
Including the heartache.



#Sometimes two hearts just can’t dance to the same beat.

#Sometimes people want something to work so badly that they cant accept when it’s just not going to.

#Sometimes you can’t read my mind like I’m reading your mind.

#Sometimes people want you to love them so hard but it doesn’t make any sense if that person didn’t have the same feeling with you.

#Sometimes life is hard but once you're happy, you will be so thankful for that moment.

#Sometimes the person you really need is the one you didn’t think you wanted.

#Sometimes I wish I could keep you in my pocket.

#Sometimes she is not perfect and you aren’t either.

#Sometimes she may not be thinking of you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that you can break-her heart.

#Sometimes a few hours are better than never.

#Sometimes you don’t want to be in love, though deep down you know you are.

#Sometimes forever would be fine.

#Sometimes hate is easy, love take courage.

#Sometimes I can’t promise to fix all your problems but I can promise you won’t have to face them all alone.

#Sometimes people will lost and feel weird when someone special is  without them.

#Sometimes when someone loves you they don’t have to say it, you can tell by the way they treat you.

#Sometimes you are my favorite reason to lose sleep.

#Sometimes I think I have too much hope and desires.

#Sometimes we like people not so much for how we feel about them, but for how they make us feel about ourselves.

#Sometimes I wish people would listen as much as they talk.

#And lastly, sometimes I wish someone will read all this and…

# …Blah!



Wherever You Go Whatever You Do, I'll Be Right Here Waiting For You..

Song of the day! :)

Oceans apart, day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice, on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
how can we say 

Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here, waiting for you
Whatever it takes, or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all The times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh can't you see it baby,
You've got me going crazy

Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here, waiting for you
Whatever it takes, or how my 
heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive, this romance
But in the end if I'm with you, I'll take the chance
Oh you can't see it baby
You've got me going crazy

Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here, waiting for you
Whatever it takes, or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you..